:)Dont let one cloud ruin your sunshine(:

So first time I've made a set in a longggggg time...
 
Today's been a very sucky day.
It started out ok but as soon as play practice started.. Ugh.
I'm just so pissed. I want to flip out on every one an it takes every fiber of my being not to.
Why am I so mad?
I'm tired of all the bullshit.
Like wtf.
I just want to scream.

it's been a while..
 
i don't really know what to say lol
 
it seems like life is good now.
everything is falling into place
finally.
 
it's been a hard year, and im still not over some stuff.
but it made me stronger in the end.
it's made me a better person in some ways.
 
summer 2012, here we go!

well today is austin's party and i don't really want to go given what happened the last time i went to a party. i really dont feel good again either. i'm not really sure why i feel like crap every day anymore. blah.
 
i got new jeans last night and they look amazing on me. it's about time i found something that looks good on me.
 
i'm so confused. . last week i tried to talk to you and you weren't having it and now this week your talking to me? it's great that you are but i really don't understand why. last week hurt me more than anything in a while.

dear santa,
I haven't believed in you since i was 6 lol. those were the good years.

Dear anyone,
Where have you been? i haven't seen you since i was like 8. why do you have to pop up when you want something? not when you miss us or to say hi? get a life.

get a fucking life!!
you are ridiculous! how can you be so stupid.

since everyone can have b!tch fests about me, it's my turn.
 
1. wtf is your problem? how can you sit there and talk about me but be completly pleasant and hug me the very next day? I know every single thing that you said. don't lie about it.
 
2.If you really feel that way about me then why the fuck are you talking to me? if we aren't really friends, you just talk to me, then why act like we are? why would you even say something like that?
 
3. Yes, I know that i fucked up. I understand that i should never have said all of those things to you and no amount of apologies could make it right. i get that. but you really can't try and make this more then it was. I know that my words are being twisted and i supposedly said things to you that i would never say to anyone. where the fuck does that come from?
 
4.I'm not perfect so don't fucking depend on me like i am. i can't balance everything.
 
5.your right. everybody does have problems. but i never said yours weren't important. i never even said mine were more important. I haven't said one thing to you all school year about myself!
 
6. How dare you try and act like you hot sh!t because you go new friends. fuck you. you are no beter then anyone else. there are so many horrible things that i want to say to you.
 
7. i'm sorry that i can't spend time with everyone at once. i'm only one person. i dont evene hand out with anyone but im exhausted from being my parents b!thc.
 
8.i've had a hard life. everyone has in their own way. but you have no right to sit there and say to me that my life has been easy. that yours is sooo much harder then mine or anyone elses.
 
9.fuck you. fuck you all. i can't wait to get out of this hell hole you people call new castle. i'm gana make it big. i will be the best event planner in the florida area. you will most likely be nothing. you people have absalutley no idea what the job world is like and you certainly have no idea what the hell you could even succeed at. good luck.

10.don't bother even talking to me anymore. if you really have to be like that about it then forget it. sorry i made contact. sorry i attempted to make anything better. i didn't know that was against the rules.

@cheychey4
Dear bestfriend,
 
You are my bestfriend no matter what you think. I'm sorry if you feel like i'm spending more time with austin then you but it's not intentional. He just talks to me now alot more then before. I realize now that you were and will always be my only best friend. The rest aren't important. You're right. We don't talk all that much anymore and i'm sorry about that. It is not intetional i swear.
I feel the same way about you and mariah sometimes. I can't help that austin is a douche bag. I'm sorry that he swapped his victims to me. I'm not flirting with him i can promise you that.
 
love you.
miss you.
chika...

Dear ex bestfriend,
 
I don't miss you. I know now that i'm better off without you. You have become someone that i don't even recognize. nobody does.
If upsets me how you thinhk your life is sooo horrible and that you have more problems then anyone. thats bull sh!t. everyone has problems. get over it. problems are what help you become a better, stronger person.
 
#betteroffwithoutyou